I love you too.
You are mine in ways you belong to no one else,
In places you are imbedded.
That will never change.
What has changed is my heart.
I just can’t keep suffering the cracks that crazy glue won’t fix.
The centre can’t hold.
It doesn’t mean I’m lost or gone.
I’m hardly invisible.
It just means that starting today,
I love me more than anyone else.
I’ve never let me down,
Always stood true and loyal
no matter the war that raged around me,
And only detached myself when I was feeling those
last few grasping heartbeats of dying love.
Then, It was kinder to just inflict the wound,
viciously if necessary,
It’s the only way I can still see you, hear you,
and not long for what was.
Sometimes, you have to choose between
bleeding out and tying on a tourniquet.
Lost my way, made mistakes, found love and destroyed that too.
I love you.
I could repeat it over and over but I see your expression
I know it doesn’t take the sting away, and would convince neither of us.
Although I do.
Does your chest hurt?
Does it burn?
I’m sorry it has to be this way.
It hurts me too,
Like a knife slowly twisting between my ribs.
Like the one twisting between yours.
A painful last kiss
Hot are the flames that burn for you,
hot as your blood coating my fingers.
I love you, I whisper. but I love me more.
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